Kara Querida Benyamin is trying to make herself feels good with her ups-and-downs, angelic-and-evilish, recklessness-and-wisdom, etc etc by keep writing and writing.
I’m waiting for a miracle in two hours. Nevertheless I rather skeptic.
I will always try to bear in mind that this life is not trying to teach you to be material. For everything you spent, you should be afford to lose it when it possibly happened.
The recent incident occurring to me in sequential manner is not to be taken negatively. Maybe it happened to teach me lessons to be much better in the future.
What God has given me so far is not even a comparison to what I have been lost. Therefore I thanked Allah swt. and I promise I will be a better person. I will be more patient. I will try to be richer spiritually. I will be more thankful in everything I have gained and more sincere in letting go everything I have lost.
I am on my way to be a better person. :)